I turned 24 this year- in the birdsong of Maheshwar- and I learnt I’ve held very rudimentary ideas as my personal beliefs in my life so far. I’ve also realized the privilege I’ve had: to be at a serene, cozy spot in Madhya pradesh, travelling wherever i want with my own money, and taking this break for reflection and recalibration. So much in my life has changed over the last one year. Turning from 23 to 24 hasn’t just meant a number this year - it’s meant financial awareness and capability. It has also meant a shift in my relationships, because there’s a particular part of me that I’ve newly acknowledged - the messy, loving, inexpressive kind. I’m learning to let myself just be the person I am and loving the people who care about me. As loud as i can. I’m realising I’m not perfect, because issues I thought I resolved years ago, kept showing up uninvited this year. I’ve made the same mistakes as I made last year- just in different circumstances. This year, I’ve thought a lot about desperation, connection, and intimacy. I’ve thought a lot about how holding hands is important to me, and how letting someone know that I love them feels imperative. I’m realising I am more like my mom than I thought. I’m realising I do not know shit about navigating relations where I may have a one-sided romantic interest. I’m realising I want to care deeply. I’m realizing I’m not touching my potential, and I need to do more to avoid feeling like I’ve left things incomplete. I want to take more care of myself. And of my loved ones. I’ve realized that I get manipulative sometimes - this has been an older coping mechanism that I’m actively shedding- I’ve inadvertently pushed buttons, seeking emotional reactions that fed my sense of security, safety, and connection. I’m realizing I do not need to do that anymore- the people who love me, will learn to love me organically. This has been a year of learning about finances, relationships, my body, reading a little, making new friends, eating new dishes, loving more people, carrying my broken heart, realising my heart never really knows what to run behind, realising that I’m stupid - and that I need to fuck around more to find out more.
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